Time to own up to the sin.

Owning up to sin, seems so easy right? Most would say, "Well I'm not that bad of a person, I don’t do this….. I don’t do that…. So I can't be that bad." It's easy to look at someone else and say that well you're not as bad as them. And continue with sin. I said to one of my friends not long ago that recently I have been realizing how sinful I am, their response was "Well that just means you're getting closer to God". So is that the truth? Perhaps, but on the other hand she gave me an excuse for my sin. It's like saying that well my sin isn’t increasing; I'm just noticing it more because I'm becoming closer to God, its comfort words.

I am a sinful being. That’s it, I have no excuse. You're black or white, cold or hot. There is no in between. Every one sooner or later has to pay for their sins, in equal. And I KNOW I don’t want to pay for mine, do you? Think about it, every time you curse, you sin. Every time you envy that person for what they have, you sin. Every time you disobey your parents or those in charge, you sin. The list goes on and on.  Someday the bill will come, the question is can you pay for all that you’ve done? The bible says we are to be a light to the world. How are we to be a light when the lens is dirty and scuffed? One of my favorite sayings is, "If you clean the inside of the cup, God will clean the outside".

I don’t know how to end this; I wish I could say that I am making progress towards becoming more like God. But I'm not. I'm so consumed in sin I don't even know where to start. Yah, I can read my bible, I can pray, I can do good works. But I don’t know how to understand, I don’t know how to give up my all, and I don’t care enough to bother to give up my time. When did I become this sinful? I don’t know; the devil is like a hungry lion looking for someone to devour. Sin crept up on me, and now I don’t know how to stop it. It's time to own up to my sin. Will you own up to it as well? To be honest I'm scared, scared to be responsible.